I’d like to take a little time here once again to thank all of our readers for your support and words of encouragement. Survivor Grl, Hang in there. I wish I could have figured my life out when I was young. Actually, I tried when I was 22, but I had to do a little more research into addiction (ha ha) to make it clear to me again that my life was out of control.
I enjoy any comments and feedback I can get so keep it coming. I can’t do this alone, and it appears I’m gaining support out there already.
Sunday. My down day. My lazy day. I’ve been reading nearly all day. For the second time in my incarceration I’m reading Nelson DeMille’s The Lion’s Game. I’ve read all of his books and a couple twice. I’m addicted to his writing, what can I say? It’s better than being addicted to crack. I would know.
Here’s something that still bothers me about this place. Many of the offenders here are here on convictions of gun charges or aiding and abetting a drive-by shooting. Since they didn’t kill anybody—this time—they technically don’t have a victim in their crime.
They also don’t have drug problems, and they are forced into chemical dependency treatment with us. They don’t identify with us, and even make fun of us every now and then for not being able to control our lives. Our counselor just tells everybody they’re doing a great job, even when they hand in blank assignments, or openly argue with him.
Well just like every other aspect of prison, I use that as a reason not to come back. That’s all I’m going to say on it.
I’ve mentioned before that we stand at the position of attention a lot here. Lately, I’ve been using that time to ponder time itself. When did time start? Was there always time? Is time infinite? My brain can’t seem to understand it. How could there ever have been nothing anywhere?
I’ll skirt around the God issue because that, to me, is even more unbelievable than the concept of infinity.
Then there the big bang theory, which I believe to be true. Why was there a whole bunch of crap just sitting in the middle of nothing/nowhere? Why did it explode? Where did it come from?
If you are a scientist and are reading this, please answer all of these questions so I don’t go crazy.